My dad's Aunt Mary passed away suddenly last night. While this is terribly sad, I'm not sure how to feel about it. We are not close to my dad's side of the family, particularly the Sedalia relatives, but still, this woman was my Grandma's baby sister. Though I don't really know her, I was still friends with her on Facebook. I think the thing that most freaks me out is that she was only 3 years older than my dad and died of a massive heart attack. That scares me. My dad is quite healthy, but still, dying at 64 is still too young if you ask me.
The whole "not being close" to this side of the family is always weird to me. Particularly since my mom's side of the family is so close. I have a slew of aunts, uncles and cousins I see on a regular basis. I have just as many, if not more, aunts, uncles and cousins on my dad's side that I don't even know. It's sad to me. My dad is one of 9, we only see his older brother, my Uncle Terry, on any sort of a regular basis and that is only on Christmas day. I'm FB friends with a lot of my cousins on my dad's side, but I don't really know them (and trust me, there are a LOT of them). Haven't seen any of them since I was a kid. I even have another grandpa alive and well on the other side of the state. I've met him twice. If my dad didn't look a lot like him, I doubt I'd recognize him on the street if I saw him. That one really gets me-grandparents are so special, especially when you're an adult-to still have them with us is a gift. I have a grandfather in Sedalia that I don't even know. Makes me sad....but also makes me appreciate my Grandpa here in St. Louis all the more. I guess I'm the sentimental one-my dad doesn't seem to care too much if he sees any of those people ever again, but I still hold out a bit of hope, hope that I can at least connect with my cousins and aunts. Most all of us live in Missouri. I don't think I'll ever connect with my grandfather and that is something I've had to live with.
Crazy that my great aunt's death brought up all these thoughts (and inspired me to blog after over a month). I am thinking of the family today, even if they don't know me (and vice versa). I'm hoping my grandma welcomed her baby sister to heaven (I like to believe that's where my grandma is). I'm hoping that great Aunt Mary's husband, children and grandchildren are doing ok. That's all.
The whole "not being close" to this side of the family is always weird to me. Particularly since my mom's side of the family is so close. I have a slew of aunts, uncles and cousins I see on a regular basis. I have just as many, if not more, aunts, uncles and cousins on my dad's side that I don't even know. It's sad to me. My dad is one of 9, we only see his older brother, my Uncle Terry, on any sort of a regular basis and that is only on Christmas day. I'm FB friends with a lot of my cousins on my dad's side, but I don't really know them (and trust me, there are a LOT of them). Haven't seen any of them since I was a kid. I even have another grandpa alive and well on the other side of the state. I've met him twice. If my dad didn't look a lot like him, I doubt I'd recognize him on the street if I saw him. That one really gets me-grandparents are so special, especially when you're an adult-to still have them with us is a gift. I have a grandfather in Sedalia that I don't even know. Makes me sad....but also makes me appreciate my Grandpa here in St. Louis all the more. I guess I'm the sentimental one-my dad doesn't seem to care too much if he sees any of those people ever again, but I still hold out a bit of hope, hope that I can at least connect with my cousins and aunts. Most all of us live in Missouri. I don't think I'll ever connect with my grandfather and that is something I've had to live with.
Crazy that my great aunt's death brought up all these thoughts (and inspired me to blog after over a month). I am thinking of the family today, even if they don't know me (and vice versa). I'm hoping my grandma welcomed her baby sister to heaven (I like to believe that's where my grandma is). I'm hoping that great Aunt Mary's husband, children and grandchildren are doing ok. That's all.
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